I was having a case of the grumpies. My BFF asked me to list 5 things I am grateful for. All I could come up with was:
- Good Friends
- Gorgeous Eyelashes
- Nice Skin
- Speaking without an accent
I don’t know why it was such a stretch…but that’s all I could come up with. I mean it. The first three came easily. But I had to try for the last two. I seem ungrateful. But I was feeling down, grumpy…and so, those were the five I came up with.
Let’s analyze, shall we?
The first is priceless…the only thing that often matters. When you don’t have your health, you have nothing. And so…it is the most important thing and it is never underrated. But when you have your health…gosh, all the other problems seem daunting, still. I will see a blessing in the NOT having the lack of it (double negative). Thank God for good health.
The second is common (perhaps) yet rare to come by (I realize that was a pathetic oxymoron). But I have a few people that I can always reach out to nurture my heart, mind, soul…they love me, unconditionally, and I am grateful that they don’t leave me lonely on this journey of “life”. Truly. Sure, there are tons of friends (1051 Facebook friends…just noticed.) It makes me feel dirty. It does. The 1051. But so many of them are on limited profile and so it doesn’t seem as awful. Regardless, I have 4 or 5 (including my Mom) who I can reach out to via text, email, phone call, g-chat and get advice, love, a response, interest, and solid conversation. I love these friends of mine. Without them, my life would be EMPTY. I’d be lonely. Sad. Sinking in despair.
Eyelashes…the bigger the better. The fuller the prettier. My Mom has straight lashes, not too long. I have long lashes, they are curly. I use 4 different kinds of mascara. But it’s not about the mascara. It’s about the technique. I love it. I love eyelashes. I love blinking. I love what they do to my face. I love how the femininize my face (I realize that’s not a word…but I’m coining it). They are the thing that take me from looking ambiguous (post-shower, post-wake up) to looking like a girl. I don’t do bold lipstick. Eyeliner is not a common thing I use. I avoid blush. But mascara…it’s my go-to, if I had to pick one item of makeup, it would be my mascara…savior of all things vain.
Nice skin. It’s dewy. It’s generally blemish free. For someone in her fourth decade of life, I have almost no wrinkles. I try to maintain the laugh lines and crows feet but they are not too visible. Generally, I have a baby face. When people guess my age, they are off by a solid 8 years. I like it. I do. Who wouldn’t? I spent the first 20 years of my life being mistaken for an adult. And now I am perpetually 22 years old. No complaints. Yet…I’m going to be honest…I don’t have perfect skin. I can see my pores. I have visible capillaries (sun damage—I promise I wear sunscreen EVERY day—except rainy days, I see it as an opportunity for my skin to “breathe”). It’s not porcelain smooth. I look at pictures online and think, “Wow, I wish I had that skin.” But I don’t photoshop. Never have. And when I catch the occasional ruddy faced celeb, struttin’ the streets sans makeup, I feel superior to her because I look better, naturally…effortlessly.
The last one…I have no idea how I even came up with this! But…it’s…Speaking without an accent. Boy am I judgmental, huh? I love languages. I try to speak each one as much like a native as I possibly can. I’m happy I grew up with Americans and that I was taught by native English speakers…to speak English. Elitism at its best. But I’m grateful, I am…that I speak clearly, confidently, eloquently, without hesitation. It’s certainly true, that if I lived somewhere else, I’d be suffering through the language. But thankfully, I live in America, and my English comes in handy.
So, that’s that for my list of five things I’m grateful for. They are snooty items of gratefulness. They are somewhat vain. But they are what they are. I could, of course, make a list of all the things I lack and all the things I possess…put it out there, take inventory. But all she asked was for me to list 5 things…and I did feel a twinge better after I had. What are the five things you are grateful for?
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