the puzzle pieces never come together to a culmination of lasting happiness. the things that make me happy are so few and far between that i’m even ashamed to admit what they are. i view all of life as one distraction after another on the path to forgetting and avoiding the things that make me sad (which truly exist at least 90% of the time). i dont want to sound ungrateful…i really dont. but what’s it gonna take to achieve happiness?